Tired of the dark. Tired of the dark making me tired.

So I've muddled through most of this week (and indeed winter in general) in a half awake state. Something about winter does not agree with me. The lack of sunlight really puts a drain on my energy levels.

Through the week I get up around 8am and at the moment it's still dark at this time, the sun is rising but its still practically dark outside. This I assume leads my body to believe it's still night and I find it even harder to get out of bed. I'm naturally not a morning person, it takes me ages to wake up anyway. I'm usually two hours behind everyone else in terms of awake/asleep ratio. 

Then I head off to work, which is quite a dingy, dark, depressing place anyway. The only lights are florescent.
I get out of work at 5pm. It's dark again. I get home. It's dark. I want to sleep. Because it's dark. I miss walking my dogs in the light. Even the dogs don't like it.

Winter fucking sucks.

Quick note: Sudoku

After having the right to bring my laptop into work taken away from me I’ve had to make do with reading and trying to use messenger on my phone. I’ve also started getting the paper pretty much everyday now.

There’s usually a few puzzles in it, along with three Sudoku ones. Ranging from Easy to hard. How easy or how hard they’re supposed to be is anyone's guess because I’ve never managed to complete one.

I start out on a roll. Writing in numbers like a child who’s had his brain swapped out with a mathematicians and then been pumped full of high sugar syrup. I feel pleased with myself, accomplished. I almost kid myself into thinking that I’m actually going to complete one, that is until I realise I’ve made mistakes. EVERYWHERE!

So then I become annoyed and try to cross out numbers from a box that’s not even a centimetre wide. Needless to say it ends up looking more like a connect the dots picture for pre-school children than a Sudoku puzzle. This is when I decide I can’t possibly correct these errors and give up entirely. Also realising in the process that I’ve wasted the past 15-30 minutes entirely and that I probably should have been doing something more constructive. Considering I’m supposed to be at work.

Hmm..I’ll probably try and complete one on Monday.

Things I can't comprehend - Bus Culture.

So I've had to take the bus to work for quite a long time now. You'd think by now I'd have gotten used to the strange things that tend to happen on the bus, but everyday I travel on it (paticulary on the journey home) I seem to question something that happens on it. It's usually about people.

People who sit upstairs

Now this isn't everyone who sits upstairs, it's just the people that go out of their way to do it. A few nights ago I was sat waiting for the bus to set off (on the bottom floor) along with maybe two other people. The bus was practically empty. Yet in this situation there is always someone who will walk upstairs anyway.

So my question is. Why would you want to struggle up those narrow ass stairs when you could easily sit downstairs because it's empty? Is there something up there that I'm missing out on? Because I mean, I've sat on a bus upstairs when it was full downstairs and it just gave a higher view of the passing traffic/scenery.

The only conclusion I can come to is that they must be up to something fishy upstairs, but I'm sure most of them don't look like drug dealers or whatever. Maybe I'm missing the point, I just don't like to try and get off a bus while descending narrow winding stairs that's all.

That person who always smells funny

Seriously I can't remember the last time I went a few days without encountering someone who smells odd/disgusting. The other day a guy sat a couple of seats in front of me who stunk like dirt. Like he hadn't washed his clothes in years. The kind of smell clothes get if you leave them in a gym bag for a couple weeks.

Now this particular guy wasn't dressed like a vagrant, oh no quite the opposite. This guy was wearing a suit. A fucking suit. That smelled about 500 years old.

The list of disgusting smelly people goes on, ranging from potatoes, shit, piss, sweat, decaying food, awful cheap aftershave, etc. The point is I guess, why do these people not notice how they smell themselves? Also why do they think that no one on a crowded bus will notice they smell that way?!

People who talk really loud or talk really loud into their cell phones

Listen, I'm sure your conversation and indeed your life is very interesting, but not everyone on the bus wants to know about it. I don't care that you were late for work this morning and it was your child's fault. I especially don't care about the weird warts on the inside of your thighs that you seem to enjoy telling your over eager friend about. SHUT UP PLEASE.

Bus drivers

Again this isn't ALL bus drivers. Just the ones who seem to think it's a chore to do their job. How can you sigh when someone asks to pay to a certain stop when you're driving that route anyway?

It's not like you have to take a detour or something.

The person who doesn't know where they are going

This usually happens to me on a morning. When I'm running a little late. Some person will get on and say.
"Do you go here? No..? Ok well can I have a ticket to here? Oh you don't go there either..um ok. Can I have a day ticket then please?"
Fuck off.
End of rant.